It has been a nice Thanksgiving evening, full of lots of good eats and family and friends. I am still full since eating some 7 hours ago! heh. This weekend has been quite a bag of tricks, i must say. From a weed-a-thon to eat-a-thon to just plain old sleep-a-thon this weekend was definitely a good time.

I've been trying to work on my guitar, and more specifically the "sinking sands" song again. I'm having problems figuring out a good melody for the verse, as well as an overall vision of how the song is going to work. It's always hard to go back and analyzing lyrics that were written, since doing so quickly zaps you back to the same headspace as when you first felt/wrote it. And tweaking the lyrics is hard too, since i don't want to lose the essence of my feelings when i wrote it back then. Many of my lyrics stem from personal experience or observation, and it's one of the ways I use it to express myself. Even to this day, one of my older songs, "My Faith" still sometimes feel like i was just there, speaking to that person face to face when they told me about their life. Intense eh? But it has been a long time, and it's more like a regular memory now rather than some acid flashback with hot flashes. This process is more therapeutic than anything, so if no one besides my bandmate hears it, that's fine by me... (watch this song become one of the token SF songs! heh). I really like what's happening with it so far, so let's keep our fingers crossed!

The job hunt / interview process is already starting to drain me. I wish that it was more of a find ONE interview, and get that ONE job you want.. it's hard when you go and spend so much time prospecting, applying, and interviewing all these organizations and realize that a) it's totally not the place you want to go to or b) they don't think you're good enough... doh doh doh! It's a long battle. It's like your puzzle piece has to be cut and altered just to fit in their piece, and it's a matter of how much you're willing to alter it's shape.

That also sounds like relationships too! How many times do ppl try and mold themselves to fit the other piece of the puzzle? The "oh, it will fit, i just need to do this and this and that". Rather than trying other pieces, at times we dwell on that one other piece simply b/c we've been trying for so long already, and we don't see any other pieces anywhere near your size nearby. And my puzzle is one of those double-sided ones that looks exactly the same on both sides, so i'm in serious trouble!

Take care,

RE

"eat drink and be merry"